I never thought that it would already be the second semester of  my senior year. It is crazy to think about the fact that I will be going to college in seven months. I am excited, but also very nervous. I have not really been prepared for this moment in my life. I have always been around my family and friends. It is going to be very difficult for me to get used to not seeing everyone, but it is a new adventure that I was going to have to tackle at some point in my life.

This year has gone by really fast even though I have not completely realized that it is almost the end of the year already. With track season starting in a few weeks, it has put a ton of pressure on me to focus on improving my physical and mental health. I started doing workouts in December to get prepared for the season, but now that it is in a few weeks I feel like I should have been doing more to prepare myself. I do not want to go into the season thinking that I could have done more to prepare myself when I should have just done it. I need to get on a strict schedule for my homework with PCM, DMACC and my schedule at work. 

Honestly, I have not done a ton to work on my mental health in the past few months. I have been hard on myself with completing all of my school work plus my DMACC work at the last minute or even just giving myself anxiety thinking about all of the future work that I have to complete. When I think about the track season I should be excited, but I am scared. I put so much effort into getting to State Track last year that I am scared that I will not be able to get in this year. I think about all of the extra things that I could be doing to over-prepare for the season  instead of just being prepared and living in the moment. 

People believe that throwing is just a competition between the physically strongest throwers when most of the time it is between the mentally strongest that believe that they can do it. If someone does not believe that they can do it, their body and mind will believe the thoughts that they are creating. I want to be able to believe that I can do it again this year, but many things can change in a year. I want to be able to beat what I threw last year, but when I think about it I get anxious and think about the what ifs. What if I hurt my arm this season? What if I hit a wall and I am at my max? What if I did not do enough?